rachel, stop.

i need to stop falling in love with my friends' old brothers.

i started thinking about how i fall in love so easily, again. i need to stop doing that, too. i need to stop taking love so lightly. i have all these people who i have fallen in love with lately, but i have to one to really love. maybe im doing this all wrong. maybe i dont know what love is. maybe i dont know how to love.

just as that thought was going through my head i decided to pick up this book i started reading about two years ago. and right where i left off there was this:

good god. child. what do you mean you dont know how to love? do you think any of us know how to love? do you think anybody would ever do anything if they waited until they knew how to love? do you think that babies would ever get made or meals cooked or crops planted or books written or what god-damn have you? do you think people would even get out of bed in the morning if they waited until they knew how to love?

anyway, i am listening to all on my itune songs on shuffle. im sick of playlists.